EVER (Melody and lyrics: Maggie Parke / Music and arrangement: Gast Waltzing)
Ever hopeful I continue reaching out for you,
And ever loving I imagine that you'd want me
just to be there, just to love you most of all.
Ever wishful still I dream you'll let me close to you.
And ever thoughtful still, I question why you
cannot share yourself with me, cannot share yourself at all.
All this love, becomes a bitter brew.
I drink it down, along with my dreams of you.
And in my tears, are woven strands of hate,
I wear them well along with this empty fate.
Ever watchful I keep looking for a sign from you,
And ever mystified I wonder why you will not loose your
chains from me, If you love me not at all.
And all this love, becomes a bitter brew.
I drink it down, along with my dreams of you.
And in my tears, are woven strands of hate,
I wear them well along with this empty fate.
It's a bitter brew, I'll drink no more.
I'll break free of...

A Deeper Love (Melody and lyrics: Maggie Parke / Music and arrangement: Gast Waltzing)
Sometimes,
you go farther, than I ever
thought you could.
This time,
you went ocean deep,
thought I never thought you would.
God knows,
in the evenings
when your feeling all alone.
God knows,
in the mornings,
you just want to come home.
I felt a deeper love from you,
than I've ever felt before.
And I felt a deeper need in you,
what you're wishing for.
Don't want to be alone,
want to have a home,
just to be someone,
and be loved.
And angel's wings,
don't mean everything.
Sometimes,
it's a long road,
to the place you want to be.
This time,
such a hard road,
your self sacrifice the key.
I felt a deeper love from you,
than I've ever felt before.
And I felt a deeper need in you,
what you're wishing for.
Don't want to be alone,
need to have a home,
just to be someone,
and be loved.
I felt a deeper love from you,
than I've ever felt before.
And I felt a deeper need in you,
what you're wishing for.
Don't want to be alone,
need to have a home,
just to be someone,
and be loved.
And angels wings
don't mean everything.

Better Save Myself (Maggie Parke / Arrangements: Gast Waltzing)
Deep inside I found my strength.
Is there anybody out there
Who can lead me from this place.
There's no rest and I'm perfectly uncertain
Of the steps that will lead me into grace.
Don't see a path that I can follow
they all say they know the way.
All that dogma seems so overused and hollow
And they tell me I can pay them and be saved.
I stand aside and watch my system of belief
Tumble from its pedestal
No one to save me, there's no rescue or relief
I think I'd better save myself.
I stand aside and watch all I though was true
And all I thought was spiritual,
Bought and sold upon the alter of no proof
I guess I'd better save myself.
I am weary and I'm humbled
And I have lost my shield of faith
There's a highway full of truths
Denied and humbled.
There's a multitude of ways to walk the path.
I've been searching through illusions,
That funhouse filled with smoke and mirrors.
I have come to one and only one conclusion:
There is nothing in this life that I must fear.
Deep inside I found my strength.
I stand aside and watch my system of belief
Tumble from its pedestal
No one to save me, there's no rescue or relief
I think I'd better save myself.
I stand aside and watch all I though was true
And all I thought was spiritual,
Bought and sold upon the alter of no proof
I guess I'd better save myself.
I'll save myself.

Book of Hours (Melody and Lyrics: Maggie Parke / Music and arrangements: Gast Waltzing)
I keep it all inside, my Book of Hours.
That's where I keep what's dear to me.
My times of Love, my tears of sorrow,
All the things you meant to me.
All my life, in my Book of Hours.
And if you look inside, my Book of Hours,
You'll find the pages all turned blue.
The prose are sad, the rhymes are sour
And my heart no longer true,
All my life, in my Book of Hours.
So I will write inside, my Book of Hours
About a heart that's become cold.(tuned to stone.)
The feeling gone, such beauty wasted,
I'll write the stories that you told.
I write my life, in my Book of Hours.
Just my life in my Book of Hours.

Change is Good (Melody and lyrics: Maggie Parke / Music and Arrangements: Gast Waltzing)
The world moves on.
The girl you though you knew
is long gone.
A break of faith, a shift of view,
experience has changed her color.
She won't be back.
You think her life,
her soul's been hijacked.
A change of heart, a different thought,
the empty reaching made her wonder.
We never stay just who we've been.
And sometimes change is seen as sin.
But that is what we surely do.
I hold this one thing, to be true:
When we fall apart, it opens up the heart.
When we come undone,
the process has begun.
Break into your soul,
find you already know,
Change, change is good,
change to grow.
She said goodbye,
you though she'd always be
your life's guide
An empty room, an open door,
she couldn't fake it anymore.
The world moves on,
The girl you though you knew
has become
more than she dreamed,
because she dared
to follow joy instead of tears.

For You (I'll Never Weep Again) (Melody and lyrics: Maggie Parke / Music and arrangement: Gast Waltzing)
I've been emptied of emotion,
by the fighting and the tears.
To face the world without you,
was the one thing that I feared.
Now I'm passed that point and realize,
all the pain's gone to excess.
With every single tear I cry,
I'm farther from happiness.
For you, I'll never weep again, for you.
For you, I'll never weep again, for you.
For you, I'll never weep again, for you.
For you, I'll never weep again, for you.
Now I wander through these empty rooms,
of what used to be my home,
and wonder if love always blooms,
just to fade and turn to stone.
And today I feel an emptiness,
a silence in my heart.
a cleansing of my broken soul,
a place to make a start.

Helpless In Your Hands (Maggie Parke)
I know the way your hands will feel,
I know the way your touch could heal
the burning fire in my soul.
I don't know how I know.
I know the way your lips will taste,
I know the form your mouth will make
when you exhale a pleasured sigh.
I don't know how or why.
In genteel sleep you walk my dreams.
When I awake I still can
feel your presence in my mind and,
I know, if once you touch me,
I'll be helpless in your hands.
I know if once you hold me,
I'll be helpless in your hands.
I'll only want more,
I'll only want more.
I know how it would feel to be as
one with you inside of me,
and listening to your ragged breath,
feeling you within my depths.
ALTERNATE VERSE
(I know that all I want to do
Is be as one, inside of you and
Listneing to your ragged breath,
Feeling me within your bepths.)
Even though I know the pain
it would cause, I'd take the blame if
I could know for this night
your emotions ran as mine.
Deep in the night my senses flow.
My body feels no shame and
in my dream I cry you name and,
I know if once you touch me,
I'll be helpless in your hands.
I know if once you hold me,
I'll be helpless in you hands.
I'll only want more.
I'll only want more.
I know that you'll be bad for me,
break my heart and make me plead for
just another night with you.
You'll take my pride away with you.
A voice invades my waking dreams.
A child who wears your face cry's for his mother (Father),
it's not me.
I know if once you touch me,
I'll be helpless in your hands.
I know if once you hold me,
I'll be helpless in your hands.
I'll only want more.
I'll only want more.

I Believe There Can Be Love (Melody and lyrics: Maggie Parke / Music and arrangements: Gast Waltzing)
Lost in this gloom
pressed against the glass,
and no key I know,
will open the door...to your heart.
Lost in my room.
searching through my past,
with nothing to show,
my excuses a poor... place to start.
CHORUS
I believe there can be life, after you.
I believe there can be love.
I believe there can be life, after you.
I believe there can be love.
You think you've bowed my head,
and torn up my poor heart,
you think I believe
love never strikes twice... in one life
And even though I bleed
and life's been torn apart,
I can still conceive
of love in my life... even twice.

Like You Play Your Guitar (Maggie Parke)
I watch your fingers grace the strings
with wonder at the sounds they bring
and I wish that they'd grace me,
yes I wish that they'd grace me.
I feel the dulcet tones you make
so pure I think my hear twill break
and I wish that you'd want me
yes I wish that you'd want me.
If you would play me
like you play your guitar.
Lay warm hands upon my skin.
Let they symphony begin.
Let it begin.
You struck a cord within my soul
awoke desire I didn't know
That I had inside of me
your playing set it free.
Across your hands the shadows
dance
with promises of true romance
and I want it to be me.
How I want it to be me.

Roll With The Punches (Melody and lyrics: Maggie Parke / Music and arrangement: Gast Waltzing)
You must experience life for yourself,
Make your own mistakes,
Take the brakes,
Roll, with the punches.
And if I told you what to do,
How could I tell you what is true for you.
No one can tell you how to handle every
tricky situation.
You must be true to what you know.
And find a way
that you can show your love.
It's only you, who can be true
to what you know, you know,
you know you need to do.
You must experience life for yourself,
Make your own mistakes,
Take the brakes,
Roll, with the punches.
You must experience life for yourself
Right or wrong
Weak or strong
Roll, with the punches.
We all struggle to keep cool.
No body likes to think
they've played the fool.
You know that everyone,
has come undone,
Not only once or twice.
It only matters what you do,
The second time
that it comes round to you.
It's only you, who can be true
to what you know, you know
you know you need to do.
You must experience life for yourself,
Make your own mistakes,
Take the brakes,
Roll with the punches.
You must experience life for yourself
Right or wrong
Weak or strong
Roll with the punches.
You must experience life for yourself,
Just choose your path
Don't look back
Roll with the punches.
You gotta Roll with the punches.
You gotta Roll.
Roll.

Save Them (Melody and lyrics: Maggie Parke / Music and arrangement: Gast Waltzing)
It seems to him, that she's never satisfied.
She keeps asking him for more,
as he slides out the front door,
but he's giving all he can.
It seems to her, that he never has the time.
He's out laughing with his friends
and the party never ends.
She's not in his plan.
He's working his fingers to the bone.
He's giving her things, but not a home.
She's gives him her broken heart each day
praying that she can find a way...
(gotta be a way)
A way to save them.
(gotta be a way)
A way to save them.
It seems to him, that she only criticizes.
Can't do anything that's right,
so he stays out half the night.
There's no peace for him at home.
It seems to her, her doesn't give a damn.
Never seems to wanna talk,
always looking at the clock.
She'll spend another night alone.

The Best is Yet To Come (Maggie Parke / Arrangement: Gast Waltzing)
Walked through the barb wire
Of the fame and the glory
A little know story
A lie.
I survived my heart breaking and
Embraced getting older
In a world that seems colder
I still try.
(Bridge)
Been attacked for what I believe,
Loved for what I'm not.
(Chorus)
Through good and the band
Some fame, much sorrow
Sometimes thought I'd just come undone.
Cried a river of tear
And still I believe
The best is yet to come.
Through happy and sad
And clouded tomorrows
when life was just no damn fun.
Cried a river of tears
And still I believe
The best is yet to come.
I've had friendship so true and
I've witnessed a wonder
Fought hard not to go under
Been ashamed
I've been praised, I've been broken
Held an enemy's token
There are things I've not spoken
And I've changed.

Vow Of Hope (Melody and lyrics: Maggie Parke / Music and arrangements: Gast Waltzing)
With this hand, I form a perfect line
Each letter that I write
Defines what's undermined.
In the space between each well formed word.
So many have gone unwritten
As they've gone unheard.
And every word leads into the next
A future of my design
In this unspoken text.
And even now, unsure of what is real
Unsure of my desires,
Unsure of what I feel.
But I am sure I'll get over you
And I am sure I'll love someone new
Each night before I sleep
I chant a vow that I will keep
Of peace and hope and love.
And with this vow and all this vow implies
Each word will live in me
A concept held for life.
In the space between myself and heart
Created from peace of mind,
Without deceptions art.
All that is true and all that's true for me,
In perfectly formed accord
Of all I hope to be.
And ever less unsure of what is real
More certain of my desires,
More sure of what I feel.
VOW OF HOPE CHANT
I will be good, I will be true,
I will not fail, I will come through
I'm not a stone, I have my needs
It's not a crime, but I won't plead.
I will stay strong, I will be fair
I have a life, I'll always care.
I am worth more, I won't give up
I will just sore, I will be tough
I have a goal, I have a dream,
That I am sure I will achieve,
I will find love, I will go on
I will feed hope with every dawn
I will find peace you can be sure
I will be whole, I will be more.

When You Are Near Me (Melody and Lyrics: Maggie Parke / Music and arrangements: Gast Waltzing)
The brightness of your
shinning light,
has blinded me.
Perception of your
second sight
reminded me,
Of the place I was before,
and how I got here.
The space I was before,
with nothing to fear.
Never in my wildest dreams,
thought I would fall for you.
Even when I run it seem,
There's no escaping you.
When you are near me,
it's like standing in the fire.
When you're away from me,
to get next to you,
Is my one desire
Tempted like a
Moth to flame,
You baited me.
Made me think
Your love was sane,
Invaded me.

You Can Count On Me (Melody and lyrics: Maggie Parke / Music and arrangement: Gast Waltzing)
I know you think I'm, playin',
playin' with your heart.
I know you think I'm foolin',
made foolin' an art.
But if you only knew me,
what I am not what I used to be.
Then you would see right through me,
then you'd know, all I wanna do is
be with you.
You can count on me,
to love you...forever.
You can count on me,
to love you...better.
I know that your emotions
are all exposed and in a whirl.
I know that you're afraid to
make love with this girl.
But if you'd only let me,
I'd make it better with a kiss.
And if you'd only see me,
I'd show you all the things
that we have missed.
There have been so many times
we have run from what we are.
Are you gonna take a stand,
Will you go that far?
You can count on me
to love you...forever.
You can count on me
to love you...better.